Letter One

It has been a quick but painful journey to this day. One month ago I was diagnosed with a degenerative disease that caused my world to crash. It's been a battle between the good days and the bad days, and to be honest, I'm not sure which side is winning right now. I'd like to think that the good days are, tho.

Do I understand all of this? No. Do I know how this is fitting into God's will for my life? No. Have I asked God what He is doing in all of this? Oh yes; right after I told Him I was angry at Him. Yes, I've been angry at God. but in the midst of it all, I still trust God. 
He knows how it is going to end, and He knows exactly how much I can handle this. He knew that I would need an incredible support system, so He gave me three amazing sisters. One of whom has already conquered this mountain. He knew that my parents wouldn't be able to be with me during all of this, so He gave me Papa and Mama H. He knew I would need wise medical staff to help diagnose and treat this disease, so He gave me the incredible Dr. DV & CO.

Each day brings a new set of situations that have to be dealt with and processed. It has become the Mt. Everest of my life. Each day I'm learning that this mountain must be climbed one step at a time, and I'm determined to conquer it. One day at a time.